It's been a strange night on facebook.

I went to uni when i was 19, to york to study of all things.... social policy (i know but i just needed to get away) anyway. I met some really fab people there and i'd say there were a core group of between 15 and 20 of us that hung out regularly, from that i was close to 8 that are on my facebook, who mostly live down south. it is hard to meet up as much as we would all like to. It's really strange as i dropped out of uni i only really had 18 months to get to know them, but it was really meaningful. I had an "incident" while i lived away which i have discussed in my private posts, and actually i can say that 4 of these friends saved my life.

there are so many stories i could tell, of sexual liberation parties, the night of a thousand cups, star power, captain birdseye and more but that's not for today (got u wondering though)

Anyway there was this guy i fancied but i was going out with someone, then he went out with someone, then it ended, we were best mates then he started seeing my best female friend so i ended up with his best friend who i had got strangely close to. ..... so him (the one i fancied's best mate), he was on facebook tonight i haven't spoken to him in around 5 years it is really weird because i have seen him on there before and he has never chatted, but equally strange is the fact that earlier tonight i was chatting to someone from the same uni friend group. (who has just ended with his girlfriend which is very sad as they have a little boy together)

i can't help but feel there is something weird and fatalistic, like people have these strings attached to people and they are just meant to meet or communicate. for example one of the uni group (the one i fancied origionally) i managed to bump into while i was on holiday in thailand. He lives in london i never see him, yet a zillion miles away we bump into each other.

i appreciate this is all confuddled but that's how my brain works!