I seem to be diluded, I have a tendancy to put others first and I try to see the best in people. I would say i am a good friend. I try to keep in touch I go out of my way to see people. I am there when people need a shoulder to cry on.

HOWEVER

SO many of my friends have disappeared over the years, I know this happens but i had a really lovely group of friends at school and i can say that only two of them i see regularly one every month at least another a few times a year (because there is a distance issue)

I again had a lovely group of friends when i was at uni for the first time

again i had a fab group of mates who i worked with in my old job, but where are they now???

I seem to go through close friends like i do clothes, some old favourites stay but most get grown out of, lost or worn thin.

I know I can't do any more i always try so what can i do? AM i friends with the wrong type of people, people who like flash in the pan mates who hang around for a year and not close friends. Is it me is it something i do to drive them away??

I again have a circle of friends around me now a mixture of people but most of my social side is with people i have met at uni, once that is gone then what I'll have more short term friends from a job i get into i suppose.

This has all been triggered by finding out one of my best friends from school is now married, i found out..... by seeing some pics on facebook. I know it's because school wasn't a great time for her and despite me trying she needed to move on. But i'm pissed off, i feel used.

I feel used generally what's the point spending all this time listening to people, caring about them and putting yourself out when ultimately no one gives a shit. My brother still has a really close circle of friends, people he knew from school and he's only a few years younger than me, so I know it can happen. It must just be me!